WHEN YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH YOURSELF

 So I don't usually do this and if someone else would do it I wouldn't be interested also. Ill just write about some stuff that is on my mind. Its just a rant about myself.

I have a thing I don't really like about myself that actually made me lose some friendships. And it has a lot to do with advice. I am a listener, but I always give advice instead of just listening. And when I look at it from the sideline I actually understand how annoying it is. Of course I give advice because I care about the person that is suffering, but most of the time people just want to be quietly understood and not be told what to do. I feel like I should give people advice but not in a way I have been. So I guess this blog is kind of for that. Its for people who are looking for prompts or smthn. I feel better to write here than to talk to people in person, cause it feels like I'm trying to solve everyone's problems when they are fully capable of it themselves. 

Also I feel that I am really lazy and that I am wasting my life and potential. It might be because my dreams are really unrealistic. I have so many damn hobbies, and because I have so many I'm not as good at them as people that have like two or three hobbies and spend more time doing them. So when I see them I feel like I'm not good at anything when I am just interested in wayy to many things to be perfect at one. I know I am a creative person and that creative job would be my dream come true, but I can't imagine myself doing just one thing. I still want to achieve something and not to be always distracted with bunch more passion projects and do them kind of above average but not well. Hopefully I will become something one day, and achieve at least one dream of mine. Actually I created a blog like six or more years ago and just made one post. So I guess I am fulfilling at least one of my dreams. It might be that I grew up from dropping everything that I just started. I think the point of this blog is more for me than for anybody else. 

Hopefully what you will get from this post is that everyone has their inner demons, personal problems, regrets, negative self talk and that they are disappointed in themselves and have no idea what they are doing with their life. And its ok. As long as you figure out your minuses and mistakes, ask yourself why are you doing them, forgive yourself, don't let regret eat you alive, try your best to not repeat it and with that you will change. You are ok. You are the way you are suppose to be at this moment. Maybe currently you are really disappointed in yourself, but that is what you need in this current stage in life to change. Either your mentality or your circumstances. You will be ok. Life is life and you are here to live it. And change hurts, its not easy but it has to happen.